September 21: Another Step Towards Change And The Hardships In The Way

   Hello to all my readers once again. I have once again taken another step toward a change in my life. After my Mama, Lauralee, had a serious heart to heart with me about how bad my health has been getting due to my smoking habits last night, I have decided it is time to try and quit once more. Many times I have tried before to quit, and failed, now I am scared I will not succeed this time either. I know it's bad for me, and can eventually kill me, and it isn't that I don't care, but every time I get so stressed, I feel I have to smoke. 
   How can I make it easier to quit when my life is full of triggers causing me to want to smoke everywhere I turn? People yelling at one another constantly, cable/internet companies giving me the run-around when it comes to trying to get our internet connection to work properly, internet mysteriously working when the techs are here and then just as quickly not working once they leave,  being bored almost all the time, and just wanting to smoke out of force of habit are just a few of my triggers. How can I combat these or any other triggers that come my way without using a cigarette as a tool to do it when I have pretty much programmed myself to use one? 
   In other news, my sister, Sheryl, is getting a hands on experience of what it is like to raise a real baby by having to take care of me like she would have to take care of it. The reason for this is because she is so set on wanting to have her own baby without being truly ready to have one. I say this due to her lack of being able to take care of her responsibilities she has now let alone the ones she will have if she ever does have a child. So far, I have only shown her bits and pieces of a two year old perspective, but I am hoping to have some diapers soon to where I can go even further back and show her what a newborn would be like. Anyway, that's all for now. Take care and be safe always everyone.