May 7th- Deep Thought Leads To Search For More Insight

I have been thinking real hard on something that has bothered me for some time now. That something being that I really don't know what I am like as a female. I know I am a female despite my male body, but having adapted certain personality traits of maleness just to hide the truth from others to keep myself safe from rejection or getting hurt from closed-minded individuals who only wish to destroy what they don't understand, I now wonder as I begin to peel these traits away so that I can finally be the female I know myself to be just what is my female personality.
I once thought myself to be more of a Gothic type girl because of my love for skulls, dragons, the colors red and black, flames and things a Goth would naturally love. Now, I wonder just how much of that is my girl self and how much is just the male personality I adapted to. Honestly, I never even truly liked the color pink or purple for that matter, but as I grow closer to my female self, I find I really am drawn to those colors and am beginning to see myself wearing lots of pink and purple clothing. It's almost as if I am drawn to those colors now more than I used to. I did put pink as a favorite color, but I always put it last being it was not my most favorite until now.
I also thought I was a type of girl who was not what some would call a "girly-girl", yet looking at the photos from Sissy Kiss where "girly-girl" reigns supreme, I am finding my heart yearning to be just like those in the pictures. I do know for a certain fact I am very emotional, tender-hearted, gentle, hate fighting, and would rather allow myself to be hurt than hurt anyone else. These traits are indeed more known to be for girls than for guys. Of course, that is just a general census of how society sees as the differences between girls and boys. Some girls are indeed more like guys, but I am still so confused that I begin to wonder whether I am more like a guy or more girly than I wanted to admit.
Maybe once I am able to reveal the female I am, I will finally be able to discover my true personality. Already, I find male things I was once interested in are no longer appealing to me. Wrestling, for one, used to be something I just had to watch every time it was on, but now I have gotten so uninterested in it that even watching it only on Mondays is beginning to make me wonder why I even bother.
I guess my real question is have I adapted so well to being a male even though I'm not that I have been able to fool everyone including myself? I just hope the answers come before I do become a female in both soul and body. Take care everyone and be safe always. Above all else, to thine ownself be true.