March 15- The Evil Within

"You will never be able to defeat all evil for the evil lies within. To defeat it, you would have to defeat your own self." This was something that came to me in a dream two nights ago. I didn't understand what it meant right away until I pondered it over and over. Then, I began to look within myself and back to all my actions I have ever done in my life as well as the things done to me. There were many people that have truly hurt me, but there were also many times when I only perceived what someone was doing as harmful to me as well. Instead of asking for the person to better explain their actions so I would not take it the wrong way, I would just jump to the defensive stand and lash out at what I perceived as evil.
It was then that I realized the evil inside me was in the way I viewed things from how others have treated me before. I will never be able to defeat all evil due to the simple fact I, myself, am always looking for a reason to justify my own belief that everyone else is evil and out to get me. Evil will always be there as long as you continue to look for it. It's like it says in the bible, "Seek and ye shall find." Whatever you seek, you will find because you are inadvertently drawing it to you. Just because some or most people have actually treated you badly, it does not mean that everyone you come across will do the same. Open your hearts and minds to trust even those you may not know personally until that person truly gives you reason not to trust them.
Never assume that you cannot trust a person if you don't know them personally because then you may wonder what could have been different if you had trusted that person should things go wrong by not doing so. Also, it is wrong to judge someone you do not know personally just by what someone else had done to you. Doing so may wind up with you losing out on what could have been the best thing that ever happened to you.
Another evil that could be lurking within is your own faults should you refuse to look inside and notice them. It took me a very long time to know my own faults because of this very thing. I was so stubborn that I always brushed aside whatever anyone would say about me and pass it off as them only trying to bring me down. Most of them were, but there were still some who really cared and wanted to help me become a better person. The thing was that all those who were only trying to help me agreed on a lot of things more than the most who only wanted to bring me down. Those who only wanted to bring me down would say just random things about me that was only because it was not the same as them. The things that were agreed upon by many was my temper (quick at first, but less so as time went on), my inability to handle stress correctly (lashing out more quickly when stressed out than I would when not), putting myself down way too much, sometimes uncontrollable regressions in mental state, and my financial instability. Point is that when many people try to point out the same exact thing, you should really take notice because when people agree, there most definitely is a problem whether you want to admit or not. If many people are telling you that you have an issue with not keeping your house clean, for example, then even if one or two of them may just be blowing smoke just because of who they are, there is most definitely a problem that needs to be addressed. Don't try to justify you keeping your house dirty by talking about how it was when you were growing up, how dirty another person's house may be, or by spewing the faults of someone else to show how your faults are any less important than that certain other. Faults are faults and not one is greater or lesser than another. In the end, they all are equally wrong.
People suffer in this world not only because of outside influences trying to gain power over others, but also because of the very evil that lies within each of us as individuals. Take a look inside yourself and battle that evil within. Only then can you finally defeat ALL evil. Take care and be safe always everyone.