December 9- It's A Wonderful Life....... NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I keep thinking about this old black and white movie that plays around this time of year called, It's A Wonderful Life. In that movie this man makes a wish that he had never been born and an angel comes along to show him just how wonderful his being alive really was. The more I think about it and what message it is trying to give to people, the more it makes me sick. If life is so freaking wonderful, then why do I hate it so much?
To me living has been a nightmare. For starters, I was born as a female in the body of a male and no one cares how I truly feel. They say it isn't right to want to change my body, but why the hell not? My body is wrong and to keep it the way it is wouldn't be right. How can I ever enjoy doing female things with my body looking like a disgusting male. To that, they say it isn't right for me to do female things because to them I am a male just because my body came out as a male. To me, doing male things that I do not enjoy wouldn't be right. Why should I be forced to do the things I don't like just because it is natural for a male to do them and not do female things because it is not natural for a male to do them? Who makes them judge over what is natural and what isn't?
Just because the majority of society thinks and does something, does that mean I have to do it too? If tomorrow the majority of society decided they would go jump off the Empire State Building and plummet to their death, you think I am going to go do it also and end my life? I DON"T THINK SO!!!! I want to live, but I want to live MY life. I don't want to live a life the way someone else wants me to live. If I can't live MY life MY way, then I don't want to live life at all.
I'm so sick of people telling me that wearing diapers and acting like a baby even though clearly I am not is not "normal" just because the majority of society does not do it. If the highest of the high powers wished for all of us to be the same, he would have made us all robots on the same assembly line. That power made us all different and unique in the things that we as individuals deem normal for us as individuals. Just like gays, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender people have different views on what they see as normal, so does every single person on this Earth. Well, except for those that wish to conform to what the MAJORITY of society thinks and does making them puppets to the greater numbers, but think of it like I said above about the Empire State Building. You can choose to be recognized by the masses as normal and lose your life, or you can be like me and go against the grain and live life your way and stay alive. Your choice.
What people wear, have sexual or any preference to, or act like is what they themselves feel is normal. For example just because I don't wear tight underwear, it would be wrong for me to go up to someone who does and say that they are sick for wearing tight underwear. Of course, alone I would have no real affect on that man, but if I were to get the majority of votes saying it isn't normal, than that man would have to choose between being normal and giving up what he views as normal to go with the majority or choose to live his own life and keep wearing what makes him feel right with himself. Same goes for music. I, for one, don't think people who could listen to too much Country, too much Rap, jazz, instrumental, or opera is normal. Does that make it right for me to gather the masses against those who do like that stuff?
My uncle claims that society is becoming more and more tolerant toward differences, but I beg to differ. Society is as it always was. When they get tolerant of one thing, something new always comes along for them to start griping about and claiming not to be normal. Indians became tolerable, but then the black man was brought in as a slave and them having equal rights was not normal to the white man. Then women began to rise up for their equal rights which to the men were not normal for women to have. Now we have gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender who are not viewed as normal by the straight people who know they are what their bodies show. We also have the Adult Babies, Diaper Lovers, and those into any of the many forms of BDSM being frowned upon by this so-called majority of society. Once all this becomes finally tolerable, what will be next for the majority of society to find not "normal"? They will find something, I am sure, just to find something to gripe and complain about.
Normal to me is wearing my diapers and using them to their fullest intent, being a female and wishing to correct (not change) my body (not gender) to match my gender (not body) that I feel I am, and acting like a big baby girl in need of parents to raise me whenever life permits. It is also living my life within my ideas of normalcy while allowing others to live life the way they see it as normal to them and not trying to force my view of normal on anyone else.
With all that said, I again say that life is not really all that wonderful since everyone has to always be on guard of people of this world who only seek to find differences of everyone else just to exploit those differences to the point of ridicule and estranging someone because of their differences. They also seek out those with good hearts to do this too in order to snuff out the lights of their golden hearts and turn them into puppets in their own dark and cruel judgmental image.
Always live against the grain. Never live your life the way others live theirs because if you live their way then you are living their life and not your own.